Friday, August 5, 2016

Positivity and Prayer

I am not a patient person. I really don’t like waiting; for anything. Long lines of people give me angst; interminable traffic lights make me crazy, creeping minutes in a doctor’s office drives me batty. You get the idea. Waiting is hard. That little quirk of mine has made this a somewhat difficult summer for me.

There have been various areas of my life these past weeks, where I really, really wanted, nay, needed an answer. Preferably now or even yesterday would serve my sense of sensibility. It has been super frustrating to have to sit back and let events that I have no control over unfold. I would really like to see everything just fall into place. Like, now. God has a different idea for me, however. I guess He thinks that I need to learn a little lesson in patience.

Every day I have woken up thinking, “This is the day! Today I’ll get the answer that I’ve been seeking!” Then, at the end of the day, when I don’t have my answer, I really have to fight the urge to rail, rant and bluster about the injustice of it all. It would just be so much easier if I could control the actions of other’s to suit my need for an answer. I’ve blogged about this subject before, how I have trouble dealing with things that are out of my control. I’ve been working on it, I really have, but it’s not always an easy thing.

Thesaurus.com says that the synonyms for patience are restraint, perseverance, imperturbability, and submission. It’s that last word, submission, which I think God wants me to learn. He keeps throwing up these roadblocks in my life because I have yet to truly, totally, and completely, submit to His PLAN; whatever those plans may be. Trusting in His plan means to surrender control of my plans.

I’ve been trying a new mantra. I chant to myself, in my head, “positivity and prayer, positivity and prayer”. I know in my heart of hearts that it’s right and that everything will fall into place in time. And of course, it did. When I least expected it, God did what He always does. He answered my prayer. He put the final puzzle piece into place and He showed me, once again, that submission to His will and grace will always have an amazing ending.

The Bible says, “The Lord will fight for you; you only need to be still. Exodus 14:14. I’m working on that “being still” part. I really am.



Sara Godwin has been a member of BUMC since 2003. She is the Assistant Director and Teacher at Apple Tree Christian Preschool and Kindergarten where she has worked since 2007. She has two wonderful children, Rachel and Ian, a loving husband, Shawn, two awesome kitties, Lewis and Lucy, and a sweet dog, Minnie. She began at BUMC working in the Children’s Ministry, assisting with Sunday School before moving to the preschool. She also helps with Wacky Wednesday and is the self-described crazy lady who wears all sorts of costumes every year at VBS.

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